Introduction: I guess I have seen 5 totally different dreams in a single night. I woke up in the middle of the night and I realized I have seen 3 dreams, I have noted them in the paper, then went back to sleep, and saw 2 more.
Before sleeping: Usual stuff, brushing teeth, putting some warm water on my face, and lying in bed. I wanted to put some random ideas into my mind for a designed, artificial dream. I have repeated 10 times each of these 6 words: Tree, Green, Village, River, Fish, Birds. I should say I did not see anything related to rivers, fish, and birds. But the first 3 is kind of related.
Dream 1: I know I saw something, I am definitely sure, but I have no clue what was that.
Dream 2: A new dream was about some statistical data about homosexuality. In the given tables concerning homosexuality rates, I just remember that there was a kind of comparison between China and Korea
Dream 3: The longest and the clearest dream of the night. I was in the garden, near trees, and I was surrounded by sidewalks. Even though the height was enough low to climb, I just couldn't get out of it. Then I realized there are (around) 3 children in the yard. I asked them to help me, but they said we can not help you, because we shouldn't touch each other, otherwise we will get a virus. Then I asked them to call someone from the house, and one child approached the main door with a cognac bottle in his hand. It didn't seem weird to me: a child and a cognac. What I recall is that I was surprised that he doesn't mind the smell of it. Then someone came out of the house, he was, I guess, Henry Cavill (superman actor). He gave me his hand and pulled me. Then I kissed his palm (of the hand) to thank him. I wanted to show my gratitude and I wanted children to see this. I had my beloved in the house and her mother. And Henry was my very close friend. I realized I have left the house for some reason, and now I came back to live them again. However, the mother of my beloved was against me to live with them. She asked me to leave that place, and I told her, just give me "5 days" to move out.
(woke up, wrote down dreams, slept again)
Dream 4: I broke my glass. I went to the optician who sold me the previous glass. I gave my glass to him and took another one. When I left the store and walking, I realized I didn't pay. It seemed strange to me, but giving my old and getting a new one was somehow okay, almost meaningful. I came back home, and I was very sick. I thought I am gonna die now. I was sweating, I had a temper, and I guess there was a problem in my heart.
Dream 5: I was at my previous University, on a path between one faculty building to another. I saw my school friends there, we were chatting and walking. It didn't seem strange to me that almost none of them study there. The road was uphill, and I was walking in the front. At the end of the uphill road, there were some strawberries in the ground. I paid special attention not to step on them. It was not strange at all that there are strawberries on the ground like grass.
Analysis:
Dream 2 | I have checked, for 7-8 seconds, a Facebook profile of one gay activist on the same day I saw a dream about homosexuality. For countries, I would say China and Korea are in the top list for Coronavirus, maybe that's the reason. I sometimes check the live counter of the virus. I have some concerns (I will fail) about the "Statistics" class at the University.
Dream 3 | The house (the yard) - was our home in Bilasuvar, a district (not a city, not a village, in between). A yard that I have lived for 17 years. A home that I have lived for maybe 7 years. I guess I didn't know that I am at home in the dream. I knew that I am at home, it was "a home" of my different dream life. But it was also a home of my real life. I do not know who were the kids. My parents have 3 children, and there were 3 children in our yard. Maybe these 3 children were actually me and my siblings. That cognac boy was probably me then. I use alcohol in my adult life. I do not recall the identity or the face of my beloved and her mother. I have watched a video about "couples in coronavirus period" on the same day with the dream. The video was about two adult people who love each other but shouldn't touch each other for fear of the COVID-19 virus. No psychical contact, they said, just like those kids responded to me. I have watched a "flirting" video of Henry Cavill with one young actress which I found very cute. (Even though I knew it was not flirting). I do not know why I kissed Henry's hands. It was a gentle kiss. Obviously, I find him a very attractive man, but I see this as my "beauty appreciation" regardless of the genders. The dream was after the homosexuality stats dream, but I don't think it was anything romantic. I was just thankful for being helped, and my beloved was female inside the house. Thus, I guess, no bisexual inclination. (Additional note: Freud believed that all humans were bisexual, by which he primarily meant that everyone incorporates aspects of both sexes and that everyone is sexually attracted to both sexes. In his view, this was true anatomically and therefore also mentally and psychologically. Heterosexuality and homosexuality both developed from this original bisexual disposition.)
Dream 4 | The glass store was the one in which I have purchased my last 2 glasses over 4 years. The fact that I didn't pay anything, and the only main idea in the dream was about money-related, then I may claim that there is also a connection here. I always hated seeing my father paying such a big amount in the glass store. In general, I always hate seeing someone paying for me, it seems like I am nothing but a burden. I would even wish to end my existence right there and not be a burden to anyone. In real-life experience, the only thing I thought when I entered that glass store (twice) was money. In the dream, I did not pay anything for my new glasses and I probably fulfilled my profound desire. No Money Paid. I was alone there. Later the dream, I found myself sick because I probably had a virus in my body and I thought I am gonna die because I have seen four thousand people die from this virus in the live counter I mentioned above.
Dream 5 | I was happy to be at my previous university again with people who I can laugh easily with. The positive memories from the past. Nostalgia. I have walked that path with my best friends who study there for many times, but in the dream, there were other friends of mine. Regarding strawberry, I can remember that saw a small strawberry pocket in the "Spar" supermarket around 4-5 days. It was in discount, and I wanted to buy it, but I decided that it is not worth to pay 600-700 forint (~2 euro). So I didn't buy it. However, I remember I did stand around 7-8 seconds in front of strawberry with a dilemma on my face: "to buy or not to buy? that is the question." At the end of the day, I repressed my strawberry desire. But dear me, I had some banana and apples at home, why don't you understand you can't have everything? Why those strawberries were so important? (The dream is the (disguised) fulfillment of a (suppressed, repressed) wish. - Freud)
Amanov Shamsaddin
11th of March 2020
Szeged, Hungary.
Later note (16th of March): I got the strawberry tho
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